Today, you danced around in my belly while I gave my last speaking engagement before you arrive.  Your grandma Celia came to listen.  She had never seen me speak before.  It was special because I was teaching people about things that make my heart very full.  Things that led me to wanting you in my life.  Things that changed me from the inside out.  As I talked about authenticity and what fires me up from the core, a strong wave of peace kept coming over me.  I saw my journey in a new light and was overwhelmed with a new gratitude.  A strong thought solidified in my heart: I have everything I need and so many overflowing blessings I never expected.  I’m so grateful.  Happy.  Truly content.  Even on the hardest of days, God is always good and He always provides.  All I want is more of Him.  More of Him, less of me.  A wave of peace kept making me take deep breaths as I started to feel this transition pour through me.  I silently prayed and thanked God for the change I felt in my heart and for my flaws and failures that always lead me straight back to what matters most.  I silently gave thanks and rejoiced for my broken journey that led me to this day.  I thanked God for all the hard times, the tears, the days I felt helpless, the countless days I lost hope… and for every time He filled my cup right back up.  I silently gave thanks for your amazing dad who kisses the belly you are in and says the sweetest words to you, for so many sweet friends that pray for you and for all the leaps of faith God placed in my heart to get here.  I thanked God for change.  I thought about my journey over the last years and so many things I used to want, I don’t want anymore.  I pray to see this much change in my heart every single day.  I sat and talked with your Aunt Emily a few minutes ago and we shared the same thought: we are so grateful for the now.  For this moment.  For all of it’s many blessings.  For the simple but profound gift of loving and giving.  We just want to rest in God’s peace every single day and spread that peace like we only have this day to live.  That’s what drives me.  “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”  Luke 12:34   Trusting in God’s plan, not mine, never fails.  Little one, I’m so grateful for you.  I’m so ready for you.  In 13 weeks, Lord willing, I will hold you for the first time in my arms.  P.S. I made this print for your nursery.  Trust, little one.  Always.  His plans will always be way better than anything we could ever dream up.  I love you.  Mom.