Hi pretty girl. I have had so many miraculous moments with you lately. God has been putting so much on my heart in the last two weeks. He has been leading me to write out my testimony. It’s the scariest most humbling thing I’ve ever done. And I’m taking my time because there are so many layers to dig through and pray through and heal and celebrate.  I’m having to forgive myself and others a lot. I am having to face the stark reality that I truly am a sinner saved by His amazing grace and Grace. It’s becoming so clear that your name was no accident. I had this miraculous moment tonight, walking around the lake with you, when that dawned on me. And tonight, after your bath, I gave you a bottle in the dark to put you to sleep and you just smiled and laughed at me. I put the bottle down and pulled you close. You are so big and snugly : )  I remembered for a moment what it was like when you were very tiny. I started telling you your story… “Once upon a time there was a girl named Grace…”. I told you about you in my tummy and about your birth and how we did a big puzzle while we waited for you and how there were really hard times when mommy was really afraid and had no idea how this mommy thing worked and, the best part of the story besides your smile - God changed me in those hard times. He changed your daddy too. Grateful is a gross understatement. I praise God every day for how He brought us to this place. So different. So changed. Full of grace. I love you, NumNum (my nickname for you as of late). Love, Mommy.  P.S. you are snoring right now. It’s really cute : )

Hi pretty girl. I have had so many miraculous moments with you lately. God has been putting so much on my heart in the last two weeks. He has been leading me to write out my testimony. It’s the scariest most humbling thing I’ve ever done. And I’m taking my time because there are so many layers to dig through and pray through and heal and celebrate. I’m having to forgive myself and others a lot. I am having to face the stark reality that I truly am a sinner saved by His amazing grace and Grace. It’s becoming so clear that your name was no accident. I had this miraculous moment tonight, walking around the lake with you, when that dawned on me. And tonight, after your bath, I gave you a bottle in the dark to put you to sleep and you just smiled and laughed at me. I put the bottle down and pulled you close. You are so big and snugly : ) I remembered for a moment what it was like when you were very tiny. I started telling you your story… “Once upon a time there was a girl named Grace…”. I told you about you in my tummy and about your birth and how we did a big puzzle while we waited for you and how there were really hard times when mommy was really afraid and had no idea how this mommy thing worked and, the best part of the story besides your smile - God changed me in those hard times. He changed your daddy too. Grateful is a gross understatement. I praise God every day for how He brought us to this place. So different. So changed. Full of grace. I love you, NumNum (my nickname for you as of late). Love, Mommy. P.S. you are snoring right now. It’s really cute : )

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