I get it now. Moms would tell me that the birth of their child was the best day of their lives. Your birth was traumatic for me. But… somehow God has been changing my heart lately. While I was away with your Aunt Gina and Emily, I spent a lot of time reading the scripture and praying and being open and honest and facing my fears and breathing deeply and I started to look at the photos from your birthday in complete awe. I look at a Lara who had no idea what was ahead. The hardest time of my life.  Yet, now almost 6 months later, I FEEL how that hard time changed me completely. Like Paul rejoicing in his sufferings because they produce character. That was, in fact, the best day of my life. It was the day God took my control away. It was the day that the heart work began. It was the day I started to truly know what real love and grace really mean. I’m so grateful to be your mama, Grace. This quiet moment with you sleeping soundly on me is the sweetest gift I could ask for on this Mother’s Day. I love you and I’m so grateful for the day you were born… and every heart-opening day that followed. The best is yet to come, sweet pea. Love, Mommy

I get it now. Moms would tell me that the birth of their child was the best day of their lives. Your birth was traumatic for me. But… somehow God has been changing my heart lately. While I was away with your Aunt Gina and Emily, I spent a lot of time reading the scripture and praying and being open and honest and facing my fears and breathing deeply and I started to look at the photos from your birthday in complete awe. I look at a Lara who had no idea what was ahead. The hardest time of my life. Yet, now almost 6 months later, I FEEL how that hard time changed me completely. Like Paul rejoicing in his sufferings because they produce character. That was, in fact, the best day of my life. It was the day God took my control away. It was the day that the heart work began. It was the day I started to truly know what real love and grace really mean. I’m so grateful to be your mama, Grace. This quiet moment with you sleeping soundly on me is the sweetest gift I could ask for on this Mother’s Day. I love you and I’m so grateful for the day you were born… and every heart-opening day that followed. The best is yet to come, sweet pea. Love, Mommy

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