You are so beautiful when you sleep. This is you right now - dreaming as I rock you in your nursery. I’m savoring every single moment today, sweet pea. I will miss you so much when I’m away the next two weeks. I’ve cried about it and prayed so hard and am putting my trust fully in God that He will help me use this time to glorify Him and that you will be happy as a clam. Your little lips and your little breath right now are cutting right to my soul. You are my compass that always leads me straight to what is good, pure, lovely and true in Christ. Your joy makes my heart so full. Today we played and laughed and read and danced and sang and I took you to smell the jasmine vine and we talked and snuggled. All the while I’ve felt a deep sadness about leaving you and most of all about the change I know is ahead. This work we are going to do changes me every time if I allow my guard to crumble. So, I am praying for truth and humility and focus and rest. This work is also exhausting. I have a very sensitive heart, Grace. When other people feel sad, I feel it with them. But…. the beautiful thing about sadness is that joy is its close friend. When you let the tears flow and you just let go, you make room for true joy. I see it coming, but first I have to get to and through the tears. Today, I’m focusing on love. ‘There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear.’  I love these quiet moments with you Grace.  You are truly your namesake - a gift from God. Love, Mommy

You are so beautiful when you sleep. This is you right now - dreaming as I rock you in your nursery. I’m savoring every single moment today, sweet pea. I will miss you so much when I’m away the next two weeks. I’ve cried about it and prayed so hard and am putting my trust fully in God that He will help me use this time to glorify Him and that you will be happy as a clam. Your little lips and your little breath right now are cutting right to my soul. You are my compass that always leads me straight to what is good, pure, lovely and true in Christ. Your joy makes my heart so full. Today we played and laughed and read and danced and sang and I took you to smell the jasmine vine and we talked and snuggled. All the while I’ve felt a deep sadness about leaving you and most of all about the change I know is ahead. This work we are going to do changes me every time if I allow my guard to crumble. So, I am praying for truth and humility and focus and rest. This work is also exhausting. I have a very sensitive heart, Grace. When other people feel sad, I feel it with them. But…. the beautiful thing about sadness is that joy is its close friend. When you let the tears flow and you just let go, you make room for true joy. I see it coming, but first I have to get to and through the tears. Today, I’m focusing on love. ‘There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear.’ I love these quiet moments with you Grace. You are truly your namesake - a gift from God. Love, Mommy

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