Grace, I have been avoiding my phone and writing here.  Waiting for you has been a challenge in many ways.  More than I expected.  Having people ask me when you are coming or why I’m still pregnant or give me advice on how to start labor and trying to avoid the irrational feelings that this is somehow my fault can make a girl a bit stir-crazy.  I’m trying so hard to keep my focus on what’s most important and remain as positive and grateful and giving as possible.  We saw the doctor on Tuesday and he said your heart rate is great and you seem to be happy, which is wonderful.   We’re so grateful for that.  I was only 1cm dilated and about 50% effaced, though, which was disappointing.  This can change overnight, so we’re hoping for the best!  I don’t want to be induced and want to have you as naturally as possible - when you are ready - so we’ll just continue to wait till God says go!  Tomorrow morning, the doctor will do a stress test and a full ultrasound to make sure you are still great.  I know seeing you on the ultrasound will help make me feel better.  Going past a due date is very common, but I am having a hard time coping with it because your grandparents have been here for almost a week and everyone is just waiting.  I’ve tried everything to keep my mind occupied, short of creating some in-depth new project for myself.  It’s a difficult balance - being someone who is used to high-intensity schedules (and loves that) - and having to let go and remain in a state of readiness… while not going nuts feeling idle.  People say to enjoy this time of rest.  I’m rested.  Trust me.  I’m so ready.  I’m a doer.  There are, amidst the moments of I JUST CAN’T WAIT ANY LONGER, some huge blessings in this, though.  For one, last week I feared labor.  I worried.  I was afraid of the unknown and the pain ahead.  Now, I crave it.  Being past your due date makes you long for labor and everything that comes with it.  Bring. It. On!  I had a dream last night about changing your diapers and woke up thinking, “I can’t wait to do that!”   Another huge blessing is that your dad is doing some wonderful things for people at work since he’s not home for his one week of paternity leave yet.  Every day he has done some amazing procedures to help very sick people.  That makes me feel good.  Little one, I can’t wait to meet you, but I know God is working hard on my patience.  And for that, I am thankful.  Counting my blessings today.  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  Phil 4:6   Come when you are ready : )  Love, Mom