It’s so good to be home with you, Grace! Your first ride down the slide by yourself…

I love you G! Touchdown!!!

Grace it’s been just about forever since I’ve written you here. You are growing so fast! You’ll be 10 months old next Thursday. I love you more than anything ever. You are crawling and making friends and eating lots of puffs and fruit with your bottles and now you are standing! Suddenly today it’s all you want to do. And all I want to do is hug and kiss you : ) You are climbing all over me as I type this! Love, Mommy

"Say goodnight, Gracie!"

Oh Grace. Oh my funny! You are a hoot sweet pea. After a delicious meal of peaches, you discovered something you wanted even more - my foot!

Gracie, you are making teeth!!! There are two little pearly whites starting to poke through and you are putting everything in your mouth to try to soothe them. But, as per usual, you are happy as a clam. I love my quiet time alone with you. This is us having storyline right now : ) I love you sweet girl. Love, Mommy

Oh Grace. First of all, this is just one o the many hilarious and wonderful moments we’ve shared with you lately. You love Mommy’s iPhone. What a wonderful few days it has been. Daddy has been home a lot which has been a true gift from above. He has a couple weeks till his fellowship starts and his schedule gets very busy for a year. We are savoring this time together as a family. We’ve been reading together and taking long walks together and growing closer and stronger in so many ways thanks to God’s amazing grace. OK off to Whole Foods for dinner! We love you so much, G. Love, Mommy

Gracie, you continue to be the cutest thing on earth. Even bumbling around in your PJ’s watching Baby Einstein, you are so focused and cute. I love you so much! Love, Mommy

I’m starting to get it. God’s grace. I thought I got it before, but I now know they layers keep peeling off. I’ve been reading the Bible constantly lately - day and night. I’m seeing my sin and ego and pride so clearly.  I always think I’ve seen it clearly and then God shows me one more layer. Last night, you were teething and woke up at 4am wanting to roll around and “talk”. I stayed up with you. I think God did that on purpose. It’s like fasting when you are stripped of the normal comfort of food. Same with sleep deprivation. It can amplify what’s really in our hearts. So, I started to have anxiety about a lot of ridiculous things. I prayed a lot as you played and as I tried to comfort you. Around 8, I woke daddy up and told him everything on my heart. He loved on me and encouraged me. He is such a good daddy and husband. He has truly taken on the awesome duty of being the leader of our family, loving us with all his might and caring for not only you and I but everyone. He loves on Great Grandma Bunny and Grama Celia and Grampa David and Uncle Stephen. He studies the scriptures day and night. (This morning he told me when you woke up at 4, he couldn’t sleep so he just studied the Bible for a couple hours. Your daddy does that a lot.) All this to say, I am so grateful. God changes people. Completely. Last evening, we drove around the beach where daddy and I had some of our first dates and talked about how very different our lives are now… how different we are as people. Night and day.  God has made your daddy and I into new people and He keeps peeling back the layers. I feel like the weight of the world was lifted from me today, sweet pea. Honesty and love and humility are hard work and they require stepping into a LOT of fear but it is always WORTH IT. You are worth it. I want to be the kind of woman that glorifies God and not myself. I have a long way to go. But that is the deepest desire of my heart. All the roadblocks between me and that goal are humbling. I look at who I was just a few years ago… even just a few months ago… and I PRAISE GOD. He refines us. He breaks us down so He can use us for good. I’m so grateful. This family is forever changed because of God’s amazing grace. You remind us of that every day, Grace. You are constantly joyful and we don’t deserve such a beautiful happy wonderful child, but God gave you to us. A true gift from above. I love you, G. Love, your very grateful Mommy

I’m starting to get it. God’s grace. I thought I got it before, but I now know they layers keep peeling off. I’ve been reading the Bible constantly lately - day and night. I’m seeing my sin and ego and pride so clearly. I always think I’ve seen it clearly and then God shows me one more layer. Last night, you were teething and woke up at 4am wanting to roll around and “talk”. I stayed up with you. I think God did that on purpose. It’s like fasting when you are stripped of the normal comfort of food. Same with sleep deprivation. It can amplify what’s really in our hearts. So, I started to have anxiety about a lot of ridiculous things. I prayed a lot as you played and as I tried to comfort you. Around 8, I woke daddy up and told him everything on my heart. He loved on me and encouraged me. He is such a good daddy and husband. He has truly taken on the awesome duty of being the leader of our family, loving us with all his might and caring for not only you and I but everyone. He loves on Great Grandma Bunny and Grama Celia and Grampa David and Uncle Stephen. He studies the scriptures day and night. (This morning he told me when you woke up at 4, he couldn’t sleep so he just studied the Bible for a couple hours. Your daddy does that a lot.) All this to say, I am so grateful. God changes people. Completely. Last evening, we drove around the beach where daddy and I had some of our first dates and talked about how very different our lives are now… how different we are as people. Night and day. God has made your daddy and I into new people and He keeps peeling back the layers. I feel like the weight of the world was lifted from me today, sweet pea. Honesty and love and humility are hard work and they require stepping into a LOT of fear but it is always WORTH IT. You are worth it. I want to be the kind of woman that glorifies God and not myself. I have a long way to go. But that is the deepest desire of my heart. All the roadblocks between me and that goal are humbling. I look at who I was just a few years ago… even just a few months ago… and I PRAISE GOD. He refines us. He breaks us down so He can use us for good. I’m so grateful. This family is forever changed because of God’s amazing grace. You remind us of that every day, Grace. You are constantly joyful and we don’t deserve such a beautiful happy wonderful child, but God gave you to us. A true gift from above. I love you, G. Love, your very grateful Mommy

Hi pretty girl. I have had so many miraculous moments with you lately. God has been putting so much on my heart in the last two weeks. He has been leading me to write out my testimony. It’s the scariest most humbling thing I’ve ever done. And I’m taking my time because there are so many layers to dig through and pray through and heal and celebrate.  I’m having to forgive myself and others a lot. I am having to face the stark reality that I truly am a sinner saved by His amazing grace and Grace. It’s becoming so clear that your name was no accident. I had this miraculous moment tonight, walking around the lake with you, when that dawned on me. And tonight, after your bath, I gave you a bottle in the dark to put you to sleep and you just smiled and laughed at me. I put the bottle down and pulled you close. You are so big and snugly : )  I remembered for a moment what it was like when you were very tiny. I started telling you your story… “Once upon a time there was a girl named Grace…”. I told you about you in my tummy and about your birth and how we did a big puzzle while we waited for you and how there were really hard times when mommy was really afraid and had no idea how this mommy thing worked and, the best part of the story besides your smile - God changed me in those hard times. He changed your daddy too. Grateful is a gross understatement. I praise God every day for how He brought us to this place. So different. So changed. Full of grace. I love you, NumNum (my nickname for you as of late). Love, Mommy.  P.S. you are snoring right now. It’s really cute : )

Hi pretty girl. I have had so many miraculous moments with you lately. God has been putting so much on my heart in the last two weeks. He has been leading me to write out my testimony. It’s the scariest most humbling thing I’ve ever done. And I’m taking my time because there are so many layers to dig through and pray through and heal and celebrate. I’m having to forgive myself and others a lot. I am having to face the stark reality that I truly am a sinner saved by His amazing grace and Grace. It’s becoming so clear that your name was no accident. I had this miraculous moment tonight, walking around the lake with you, when that dawned on me. And tonight, after your bath, I gave you a bottle in the dark to put you to sleep and you just smiled and laughed at me. I put the bottle down and pulled you close. You are so big and snugly : ) I remembered for a moment what it was like when you were very tiny. I started telling you your story… “Once upon a time there was a girl named Grace…”. I told you about you in my tummy and about your birth and how we did a big puzzle while we waited for you and how there were really hard times when mommy was really afraid and had no idea how this mommy thing worked and, the best part of the story besides your smile - God changed me in those hard times. He changed your daddy too. Grateful is a gross understatement. I praise God every day for how He brought us to this place. So different. So changed. Full of grace. I love you, NumNum (my nickname for you as of late). Love, Mommy. P.S. you are snoring right now. It’s really cute : )